My answer to Do you believe in god, and have there been any incidents in your life that have shown the presence of …
Answer by Vijayendra Mohanty:
I do not believe in god. But I used to, or at least thought that I did. I have had experiences that I might have described as evidence of the presence of god, but I eventually came to see them as nothing out of the ordinary.
The way we define god has a lot to do with the way we define ourselves. Invariably, the god that we believe in has our qualities, our feelings, and is the absolute fulfillment of our greatest ambitions. So whenever we encounter a coincidence that seems to validate our idealistic view of the world, we chalk it up to god. I have had such experiences just like most people have.
And not just god, I have even subscribed to sophisticated superstitions such as “Law of Attraction” and the Deepak Chopra variety of pseudo-quantum thinking. Some of the things I have believed in the past make me cringe and smile at the same time. I used to define god as consciousness and beauty before I arrived at the understanding that these phenomena can be adequately explained by neuroscience. There was even a point, towards the end of my relationship with religiosity, where I have said “God is a word”.
About a year ago, it became apparent to me that I was clutching at straws and rejecting the label atheist just as Byomkesh Bakshi rejects the label “detective”. This was when I began the process of letting it all go.
One lives, one learns. And one tries to not repeat the mistakes of the past. What else is there to do?